我决定和大家分享我最新的书（The All-Important,Well-Fed,巨大的白人）我的追随者们在这里，free of charge,one chapter at a time.那么……我们在哪儿读的这本书……哦，是的…
After more than four hours of uninterrupted standing,my knees became increasingly wobbly beneath me.In that dark hallway,我的脸紧紧地贴在冰冷坚硬的墙壁上，my heart never once slowed.告诉我只知道在建什么的压力。I had to admit my involvement in what had happened if this was ever going to end.It was now 1:51 AM.
我看了看埃里克。I had gotten my brother into this mess.他自己的脸和我的脸一样贴在墙上。他空洞的眼睛绝望地看着我。He couldn't last much longer.我能感觉到他快崩溃了。如果他这样做了，他会告诉他们什么，我猜不出来。他不知道我的参与，and he had nothing to do with what had happened.
艾米跪在我们中间，她的脸像我们的脸一样贴在墙上。她的腿早就断了，and she had slumped into a miserable little pile on the ground between her two older brothers.She had cried several times since we were forced there.Her tears were not resting easily on my conscience.
埃里克右边是汤米·安，我们兄弟中最老的一个。She had avoided eye contact with all of us for the most part.At one point,an hour earlier,我们的眼睛紧闭着，我在那一瞬间意识到她知道是我。她怎么能不呢？它是always我把我们弄得一团糟。
“你只要告诉我们是谁干的，我们会让你们都走的，”声音从我们身后传来。It was heavy and haunting.我深吸了一口气，咬了咬嘴唇，让我的赛车血液平静下来。我不能告诉他们。Not yet.如果我拖得够久，we just might all get out of this,毫发无损。“适合你自己，”声音又说道。那声音的影子消失在它的主人身后，我们在黑暗中被孤立起来受苦，作为一个群体思考。
我在脑海里一遍又一遍地重演我的罪行。我不可能坦白。No possible way.当然，我的兄弟姐妹会自由的，但我肯定会因为我所做的而死去。My gut told me that as long as I held out,这将是最糟糕的。They wouldn't hold us forever.Of course,one hour had turned to two,两到三个，and now here we were,four hours later and there was no end to our suffering in sight.
最后，when Tomi Ann had stopped her begging,埃里克跪在地上，艾米只是沉默了，I did what I had to do and I threw my little sister under the proverbial bus.我让她牺牲自己，so that I could keep living.他们不会杀她。They将kill me.我没拿走钱。但我有完成things with the money that were unforgivable.
“艾米，如果你告诉他们你把硬币叠起来了，I'll give you my lunch box," I whispered."Then they'll let us go.你会比我们其他人少麻烦，因为你太小了。”
In Dad's bedroom closet,他放了一大碗零钱。那天下午早些时候，I had entered his closet to put a pair of his shoes where they belonged as I set about finishing my daily chores.A brand new roll of quarters sat against the edge of the bowl,unopened.两边都是蓝色大字体，it read $10.
I was in second grade at the time.We had just learned in school that there were four quarters in every dollar,and so this roll of quarters utterly fascinated me.当我看到美元符号的时候，我很快就想在脑子里计算。十美元，十美元，让我们看看，那是多少个25美分？I hadn't learned my times tables yet,所以我决定亲自去看看。我撕开纸卷，把四分之一的硬币堆成十堆，放在爸爸零钱碗旁边的架子上。满意的，I left them all there and went about my business.
Dad found them just before our bed time that night,就在那时，所有的地狱都爆发了…